Seana Speaks

I Choose This

One slow finger at a time, with white-knuckled concentration, I form my hands, tightly wrapped, around the bars of life. I hold on. Reminding myself of where I am, of who I am, of what these bars represent, I hold on. This life, the one I have chosen, the one I have made and designed […]

What Not To Say

You know what I hate being asked? “Why is your anxiety so bad today?”, or “What’s causing your anxiety?”, or “Why is today so hard?” If I knew the answers to any of those questions I’d probably be a lot better off than having to tell someone, “I’m sorry, my anxiety is really bad today.” […]

Diagnosis

I’m staring at a blank screen and thinking, I’m supposed to be sharing how I feel. And then I realize, I don’t have any idea how I feel. I don’t know anything about myself. I suddenly have no idea who I am, which parts of me are real, or what will remain of me. It’s […]